***I had one very interesting and unusual event in my life and I'm
still not sure what that was. I'm a computer scientist and was doing Ph.D. at that time. I was sitting on advanced AI class and thinking about learning principles in a particular kind of neural network in context of a maze navigation problem. I was sort of imagining/simulating this in my head. Then suddenly a thought came: "That is me!". I never sought that a mind could ever recognize/see some resemblance with itself in one of the models it's pondering about. One can see analogy in this situation in sort of seeing itself in a mirror for the first time. There are different possible theories of what might have happened. After that even more interesting things had began. I decided to "wake up". I was not sleeping at that time, of course, but what I'm referring to is something more than just being awake.

G: ahahahahahaha oh a wake Up call... there is more than meets the eye.... you had a quick glimpse into something that jogged a large cognition into place... that is a start....

***Where I got the knowledge how to do it, I don't know. The introspection of this is like the whole brain lit up, the flow of energy through the neck increases, then starting from the left hemisphere some cycle begins, then equivalent pattern in the left, then something which I recall as a whirl from above surrounding the head. Then I felt I could "wake up" even more and I did it. Well, I did not feel the oneness with the Universe, but thought kind
of "that's what the human being really is, it's good to create, love and imagine.

G: the I AM is that which Creates, Loves, and imagines... and Whatever the mind can imagine it can create a reality for... that is true... But there is something beyond Creation and that which creates...

*** Then I decided to "wake up" even more and that was probably my
mistake. The excitation came from the left and right to a center, which seemed to be controlling all that. This is sort of the area highlighted on the cover of the book "The "God" Part of the Brain". I'm not sure where the author drew the inspiration for this picture, moreover, neuroscience says that the brain hemispheres are not connected there. Anyway, that's how it felt.

G: yes the Center or Satvik and neutral is that which gives life to the Rajasic of Creativity and the Tamasic of Change or breaking down...

***When the excitation entered that area I still remember sort of crying like it's dying chorus of "Ah!" of .. one can call it the consciousness or that swirl collapsed into a point and expanding as a tourus, I don't know. I started to loose consciousness, even the usual one. Something that feels like a strain of force came from somewhere around the solar plexus. At some point I had a
choice of going left or right. I went right. I this strain only got to the lower right frontal lobe area. It was enough to restore the consciousness. I felt pain in the area where the excitation met like it was physically damaged. I was able to think ok, some planning and short term memory were impaired, e.g. it took me a while to recall where I parked my car, the rest was usual or even better than usual. Anyway, I felt a strain of energy coming from the base of the spine coming through the right hemisphere and ending in
that right bottom frontal lobe. After that, a lot of unusual things started to
happen. Strange dreams, unusual sensations in the body, sort of
consciousness expansion and above all extremely vivid imagination, one I never had before. There is lot's of different stuff in addition to this(I don't want to put it down in one email), but it's I guess enough to give you the idea what happened.

G: yes you definitely had an opening... it is to bad that you didn't stay central channel instead of right or left... but that is fine this energy is neutral until you put a spin on it... the body/mind store the vast information that you have collected like a computer file... what liberates is not in re-accessing these old files but to go beyond them to the Source from which all Wisdom has the capacity to come to life...

***After a few years everything returned more or less to normality. I still have painful sensation in the base of the spine. That's why decided to contact you guys, since the base of the spine matters a lot in kundalini. Many of mine hormones are out of balance. I don't think that sharp as I used to when I was doing PhD. There some other bothering symptoms.

G: Kundalini is in the end about consciousness and returning to see the Source from which all springs from... coming to a 0 point balance... it is in finding the Eternal versus continuing to chase the ever changing transient... Once the Eternal is Known then the transient may be entered and lived fully without hinderance.

***The questions that I have are: What do you think it might have been
besides the obvious conclusion that I just suddenly went crazy?

G: oh you are far from crazy... you are awakening to find out the infinite Potential.. the vast Source which makes intellect and creation possible... you are in the process of awakening to that part which has always been not to that which appears to come and go..

***Is it a Kundalini?

G: i can yes that it IS kundalini... and kundalini is simply a moving consiousness of energy which unlocks all stored perceptions and cognitions of individual mind and experience along with the mass mind expereince... it is the opening of an opportunity to go beyond the limitational form to the subtle realms and form and beyond even that to the Infinite Source where all light and knowledge and Life stem from....

****Who else had similar experiences while doing scientific research or studies?

G: a certain time may open that whatever one wants to know will appear across the screen of mind or as a direct and full cognition of a whole and complete concept as a Knowing... many have jogged openings in a variety of ways... you obviously have had past life experience in which when doing your contemplation it simply was the key to once again unlock the energy and restart your experience in this life...

*** What studies of that has been done? What shall I do to get rid of the rest of the bothering symptoms or get it under control?

G: learn how to work with it... there is a way... it takes the willingness to go to completion and in that the symptoms settle once and for all.... once the "0"point balance is entered a stillness is Known...

***I sent a request to join the group. Please approve if you think my being on the list might help me in any way. Please do not post on the list with my real name and e-mail on it.

G: your name and email are safe... of course you may join... please read through the postings and then get back with any questions that you have...

***Looking forward for your reply.

G: may you enter into completion and go forward to help others through
the door....

Sincerely,

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Love and Blessings Sat*Chit*Anand shanti-shanti-shanti Om

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