It's been almost one year since my kundalini awakening, and I am still in complete wonder and awe about the experience, from the time it began to its continuing unfolding.

Never one to believe in religion, spirituality, the paranormal or even God, I had always prided myself on being a pragmatic and realist. Meditation, yoga and other new age activities were not things I really had taken an interest in nor pursued.

My then-boyfriend, Rich, was the one who believed in ghosts and claimed unusual incidents happening to him throughout his whole life. I took a mild interest in this, but never took it seriously. When he began to do yoga spontaneously while asleep, then while conscious, I figured that that was just something he did, as the odd one in my circle. Even when he began to speak Sanskrit and OM sounds without knowing what he was saying or doing it purposefully, I shrugged it off as results of his difficult upbringing as a Jehovah's Witness. I felt better about his new "talents" after he sought advise from a psychologist and someone he called a Swami up in North Seattle. He would talk about this thing called "Kundalini," and I frankly had no clue what he was talking about.

I'll have to admit that my awakening came the week after watching the film/documentary "What the Bleep Do We Know." It sounds silly, but I suppose it was the scientific, quantum theory discussions that led me to follow a piece of advice that one of the scientists said could help transform my thinking, and thus, my life. He said that at night, before going to sleep, to think about a goal I really wanted to reach. Then, in the morning, before getting out of bed, I should ask God to show me that he is real Ð to show me with a physical, concrete sign. So I did. I ended up winning a prize in a drawing later that day, and I thought for sure that I had received some sign from above.

The next morning, I said the statement to myself again. I went to work, slammed the car door after arriving to the office, and pulled a neck muscle. It had hurt so bad that I went home just an hour later to try and relax it. Rich, who was unemployed at the time, was home. We took a nap together on our futon, which we have now decided carries special energy in it. I had fallen asleep, I think, or wasn't sure if I had, at least not fully. Suddenly, my body became electrified, like a lightning bolt had jolted all through my body, from the tips of my fingers to the end of my toes. Though the sun shined outside the window, everything went pitch black, and I could see lightning waves like you would across a TV or screen. I heard the sound of buzzing in my ears. It lasted for about 30 seconds, and was the most incredible, awesome feeling I had ever felt.

I was never scared when it happened; I was actually quite thrilled that I might be going through Kundalini. I had Rich talk to Swamiji about it. Apparently, when one person experiences Kundalini, they can trigger it in their partner as well. She told me that what I had felt was probably was an awakening and I should come to Sunday meditation and Satsang. I did so happily, mostly because I wanted to experience that jolt of lightning again.

I closed my eyes during meditation, thinking that nothing would happen. By the end of the session, the area between my eyes had sort of squished together without any effort on my part.
The next day, I meditated by myself after work. It didn't take long for the muscles to contract at my Third Eye again. This time, I saw blue/indigo lights. I was thrilled.
Things enfolded quickly, for I went to bed that night, and as soon as I closed my eyes, the Third Eye did its thing again. Though I thought all these experiences were cool, I started to worry that it was happening without my intending to bring it on. After a while, the muscle contractions moved to my lips. I began pursuing them and moving my lips side to side. I knew that what was happening was something huge.
Progressively, different parts of my body started to awaken. An hour or so had passed, and I decided to wake up Rich, or perhaps my movements had woken him up. We both knew what was happening, Kundalini was coming out with a force! It had become so late at night, Rich said to ask it to stop so that I (and he) could sleep. Somehow, it did stop enough for me to fall asleep.
I thought it was over, but the muscle movements turned into mudras with an incredible, unstoppable energy. At times, I worried that the rapid circling of my arms and hands would lift me right off my feet. I cried spontaneously Ð it was a strange cry, for I was not sad, but my body was, or at least, it needed to release something.

Rich rushed me off to Swamiji, who welcomed me into her apartment with open arms. My hands were flying faster than any conscious person could do. Swami-Gi balanced me with some energy work, and from time to time, my lips pursed so hard it looked like I was trying to kiss Swamiji! She took it light-heartedly.
Though I had calmed down for a bit after the energy work, I went home, and had to keep going. Rich left me to attend a meeting. I sat by his alter and stretched myself in numerous yoga positions, though I had never learned yoga. By this time, my body was so sore. But I continued; I had no choice.

Rich came home and for some reason, my body was just drawn to his. I started doing energy work on him, without knowing what I was doing, just letting it happen. He had told Swamiji that since I started awakening, he felt very funny inside. He laid down on the magical futon, and I put my hands on his stomach. After a few strange sounds coming out of my mouth, my voice began to say, "I will help you." I was overcome by the words. Our souls were talking to each other.

My energy brought out some pent up feelings that Rich had been holding onto. He revealed some things in his past that he wasn't proud about; I did the same. We had both done things to each other that no couple should ever have to deal with in a relationship.

Many other amazing and incredible things happened that night. We got hints into what had been driving some of Rich's problems, and mine. I realized that all of us, whether we are conscious of it or not, carry with us deep-seeded experiences either from this life or past lives that affect what we do. Only through Kundalini can this karma be changed.

That night, I had what Swamiji called a lower samahdi state: God Ð realization. Though I thought my relationship was over with Rich, I had never been so happy to know God existed and that I would never be alone again knowing that God was with me.

Had it not been for the sanity of Swamiji, Rich and I would not be together today. By this time, after what I had been through in those two days, I had nothing but the utmost respect for Swamiji (or Guru-ji), her divinity and her path in life. Since she said Rich and I should stay together, I knew she was right. She also had me take Diksha the next day, and then I became initiated as Anju Ð one who lives through the heart.

Rich (see his Testimonial in #4) and I ended up getting married, with Guru-ji as our officiant. There have been many incredible, brilliant and, yes, scary experiences with this Kundalini journey, practically on a daily basis. Sometimes Rich and I go through things together, sometimes separately. But with the stripping down of each layer, I feel closer to my true self, my inner being, my purpose in this life. My Diksha name has become a guide to what I need to do to progress on this path. I am always grateful that my journey has been made easier with Rich trail blazing the way first, and of course, Guru-ji as my teacher.

If there are any doubts about the power of Kundalini or about the grace of Guru-ji, please take this testimonial into consideration. The journey is scary and difficult without someone like Guru-ji to guide you through the path. Thank you Guru-ji for all you have given to me and to so many others. Namaste, Anju.

love,
Avlokita

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