I don't know where to begin, but I am so grateful to have found your website. I am at a loss for what is happening to me, and after searching the internet first for diseases, illnesses, or psychological disorders, I (accidentally) stumbled upon "Kundalini". I am truly frightened and am hoping to gain some insight into my new "condition" and at the very least to be told to see a neurologist or psychiatrist.

I would like to first state that before just recently I was not a woman on a spiritual path to "enlightenment", rather nowhere near that. I am neither religious or spiritual . . .

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* I am a 53 years old man.. At age 23 I began TM meditation and a few months later saw a picture of Meher Baba and went into deep bliss. For several days I was in a state that I could hardly speak, immense bliss, etc. For the next four years I meditated and the bliss-continued as I did my job etc. About four years later I began, what is now called Kundalini Syndrome, symptoms most of which was violent shaking back and forth, with deep weeping, lightening bolts cracking in the center of my head, etc. . .

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As i learn more about Kundalini and the 'symptoms', it has occurred to me that this has been going on for a while, or at very least the set up has. Here i thought it was peri-menopause, which by the way, numerous blood tests proved other wise. As i mentioned, some of these experiences are difficult to describe for lack of language, however it may be easiest to list what has happened in the last year.

. . . In October of last year i experienced what i truly believed was invisible stigmata. With this came seeing people, animals and other things that weren't really there. The stigmata experience was painful, lasted from Thursday night at 2:33 am until Sunday morning and sometimes left bruises.(I have later learned that there are chakras in these areas that were probably activating and cleaning themselves). This happened several times with my palms, my feet and my ribs. During these experiences i also had a hot burning feeling that was similar to Reiki out of control . . .

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A couple of months ago (right at the end of 2007) I started meditating regularly and from the offset felt energy move up through my body, clearing each chakra one at a time. I remember at one point my heart was beating so fast that if it wasn't for my sense of calmness inside I probably would've been a bit more concerned! When the prana reached the top of my head, it felt like my crown chakra had been blown wide open. When I meditate now, I go through waves of being alert and able to focus and direct the flow of my energy and then into deep dream-like states where I live out real but surreal scenarios, until I come round again . . .

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